There is heartbreak in my heart,
A gaping hole in my soul and
fear clutches at my very being.
I fall and cry out,
“Who am I, Oh God?”
but there is only silence.
I curl into a ball and
let the tears of agony fall.
The silence is deafening.
Only my screams are heard,
echoing through the hollow night.
Darkness embraces me, icy and cold.
In the vast darkness a voice rings.
It is soft and tender, inviting.
I strain to hear.
It sounds. It resounds,
In the deep hollow of my soul’s night.
It echos inside my empty heart.
But from within comes a warmth.
It fills me, amazes me.
I can’t explain it, can’t understand it.
“YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE,”
the voice reverberates.
It echos inside me.
My anguished depths cry out:
I once did, but no longer.
My words come without voice.
I am no one. I have become nothing,
This is the rebutal my torn soul gives,
the answer a shattered life spews.
Still, He hears. He hears ME.
Despite my lack of words He vibrates
within those awful confines called body.
out of the darkness
a piercing light comes to life.
It blinds me. Ignites my insides.
It consumes me, yet sustains me.
It is an ecstasy that burns me.
The voice thunders inside me.
“ YOU ARE MINE,
A PRECIOUS JEWEL AMONG DIAMONDS.
“YOU ARE A DELICATE FLOWER,
YET YOU’RE MY WORLD.
YOU HOLD THE LOVE OF THE ANCIENT OF DAYS.
“YOU EXALT THE HEART OF THE GREATEST
WITH YOUR JUBILATION AND
TEAR IT TO SHREDS AS YOU DESPAIR.
“YOU HOLD WITHIN YOU THE SPIRIT
OF THE MOST HIGH.
YOU ARE ALL THERE IS. MY EVERYTHING.
“IT IS FOR YOU THAT I GAVE MYSELF,
FOR YOU I LONG IN THE DAYLIGHT,
AND FOR YOU I WILL ALWAYS FIGHT.
“YOU ARE MY HEIR, MY INHERITANCE
THAT WHICH I DESIRE TO BE NEAR.
BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU.”
The words penetrate my soul.
They pound with the beats of my heart,
filling the empty spaces.
They fill every space in between.
They are truth, they are Love,
They are Life, eternally.
I open my eyes and let in the Light.
The darkness falls away.
Fear evaporates into oblivion.
My mind quiets and my heart melts.
Fire consumes me and I soar.
I look into the heart of the God
that sees me, and I remember.
I recall my identity.
It is not in me, but within Him.
His essence creates me, sustains me.
Every moment, it completes me.
There in His soul is love.
Joy floods His heart seeing me fulfilled.
He offers me His hand.
I take it and
Love drowns me.
It makes me new.
Love sweeps me away
to that place of no return.
Where I’ll never be the same.
It is where Love meets us,
In our disparage, our worthlessness
And make us whole.
Love. It gives life.
Love is in the Light
and He is the Light.